the post i thought might never happen

After nearly two years of trying, Bart and I are THRILLED to FINALLY announce that we are expecting baby #3!!!
I'm due the first week of November, but we are shooting for 11/11/11 because that would be the coolest birthday ever! As you can see we had an ultrasound over a month ago and we saw ONE tiny, fluttery heartbeat, so it's not twins this time. Honestly I would have been thrilled if it was twins again (maybe a little less thrilled if it was twin boys again), but I've also heard that having only one baby at a time is a nice way of doing things, so we'll give it a whirl!
Kade and Ky are excited to be big brothers. Some days they say that they don't care if it's a boy or a girl, but most of the time they want a little brother. And, they want to name him Luke Skywalker Miller. Oh, and Kade does not want it to be a girl, because he does NOT want to buy princess movies!
These past two years have been filled with lots of disappointment, lots of tears, lots of prayers. There have been lots of doctors visits, dozens of ovulation predictor kits, and far too many negative pregnancy tests. Days of trying to keep our hopes high, days when we wondered if this just might not ever happen for us again, and days where I wondered if we were sent two babies the first time because it was our only shot. Days when I felt guilty for wanting more, when I had already been given the two most amazing kids ever, to days when I truly felt blessed that I even had two kids.
Through it all I have learned a lot about trusting in the Lord and His plan for me. I have learned a lot about the importance of growing from our trials, not simply enduring them. I have learned some about how to choose to be happy, even when things aren't going how you expected them to.
Hopefully I can be a better wife, and a better mother because of what I have learned. I see this pregnancy as a blessing from above and not just something that is supposed to happen because I wanted it to. And I see this precious life that is growing inside me as nothing short of a miracle!