Aaaaahhhhh! It has taken me so long to finish editing Everly's newborn photos. Partly because I have been busy taking care of the beautiful baby pictured below, and partly a whole lot of emotional reasons. It seemed like every time I sat down to edit these pictures, I was flooded with so many emotions, that I couldn't continue. Every time I look at these pictures, I am reminded how I was feeling when they were taken. The first several were taken the very first day we brought her home from the hospital. I was so relieved to finally have her home, yet I hadn't fully processed everything that had happened during the previous nine days while she was in the NICU. I was tired, emotional and physically, and as I tried to be the new momma and the photographer all at once, I became a little overwhelmed. I had already cried over the fact that we may have missed our perfect newborn photo window. I always try to take newborn photos in the first 7 days after the baby is born, and we brought her home on day 9. This may sound so trivial, but over the past several years, as I studied photography, and each time I took photos of a tiny new baby girl, I dreamed about what it would be like to take pictures of my own daughter some day. As her delivery date drew near, I planned and prepped and dreamed of all the magical photos I was finally going to take of my very own tiny princess.
As I started to take her pictures, only hours after we were finally able to bring her home, I was filled with so much joy and happiness. She was perfect. She calmly looked at the camera, she slept soundly and let me pose her. She may not have been as mold-able as I would have liked, but it didn't matter. My dream of dressing up and photographing my baby girl had come true.
Another challenge I faced when editing these pictures, which made me stop more than once, was knowing how much to edit them. It is so clear in many of the pictures with her eyes open, just how yellow her eyes were.
These 38 heel pricks also tell part of her story. It's going to be a long time before I can look at that photo and not feel a lump in my throat for what my tiny, brand new baby had to go through those first 9 days.
I love taking pictures of babies in their rooms. I worked so hard on making Everly's room perfect, and since this is a place she will spend a lot of time as she grows up, it will be fun to see how she changes.